It's been an interesting few days. And it's not over yet. However, I do have a few observations.
I have a long way to go to assimilate the principles of Nonviolent Communication into my life fully. I'm very grateful for one of the lessons I've learned in this conversation, which is that I still get triggered by preaching. Anyone else feel that way? In retrospect, I feel sad about the preaching I did. Did it connect with anyone in the way I'd hoped? I suspect not. The conservative Christians I'd hoped to reach appear to be offended by it, and I can understand that. And by using their language, I probably turned off the choir, too!
I don't think anyone has changed their mind, but hopefully a few people have a better understanding of what it means to be LGBTQ, and it won't hurt so bad when we win full marriage equality.
I'm very grateful for everyone's patience with me. I'm grateful for the conservative Christians who reached out and tried to connect and understand me. I'm very grateful for the many accepting Christian allies who welcome me into their homes and hearts. I hope this conversation didn't cause any pain or discomfort to you.
I'm grateful for the guy who refused to deal with me at work because I'm trans, because he showed me what beautiful, supportive, and loving people I work with. I'm so very grateful for every one of them.
And I'm grateful for this lesson: I'm sitting here with a heart full of love and gratitude for everyone, including all the conservative Christians who read my blog and disagreed with it. But I suspect those folks don't feel the love I have for them, not after some of the things I've said. I can feel my love, and benefit from it, and enjoy it, but can they? I suspect not; and so is it really love? Again, I suspect not. Love needs to be received to be successful, and the love I sent out was too thickly laced with anger, grief, and frustration to be fully received. Bittersweet.
Something to work on.
Like all things that really educate us, the test comes before the lesson. Now I've got a better understanding of how much I don't know, of how far I have to climb on the hill of enlightenment. I'm grateful for that, and I'm really grateful for the Peace Conference coming up.
My opportunity to learn.