Don't let your schooling interfere with your education.
~ Pete Seeger

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Anniversary & Faith

Today marks the one year anniversary of the day that I legally changed my name and began the adventure of my RLT. Judging from the progressive improvement in my quality of life, self-esteem, career opportunities, the richness of dear friends new and old, and the growing peace in my heart, I've passed with flying colors.

And on this day, driven by my need for unity and intense desire to live life as fully as possible, I have begun to research SRS. (Actually, I started a couple weeks ago, but who's counting?) Who is most likely to do a bang up job, what to do before-hand, and so on. Where do I go? Thailand? Montreal? Doylestown, Pennsylvania? Trinidad, Colorado? If you get what you pay for, this is not something you want cheap. On the other hand, how on earth can you save up $20,000, especially when you're paying down the credit card two figures at a time and the mortgage not at all?

The evidence all indicates that the task I've set before me is impossible. At the current rate, by the time I save enough, I'll be too old for it to matter, too old for the operation, too old to walk.

Something has to change, and it will, though I'm damned if I know how.

Sometimes you have to go by faith.

2 comments:

anne said...

Hey girlie!

Maybe your friend will win the lottery--hah! Enjoy your vacation and stay cool.

hugs,
me

ajandmac said...

Fuck.

I hate that the money part stands in the way, even though I know surgery costs money, it just doesn't seem fair that someone would stay trapped in some senses. I don't know how to work around this for you or for myself, but faith might just have to work.

I wish you all the best Seda, truly.

Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable.
~Helen Keller

Reading List for Information about Transpeople

  • Becoming a Visible Man, by Jamison Green
  • Conundrum, by Jan Morris
  • Gender Outlaw, by Kate Bornstein
  • My Husband Betty, by Helen Boyd
  • Right Side Out, by Annah Moore
  • She's Not There, by Jennifer Boylan
  • The Riddle of Gender, by Deborah Rudacille
  • Trans Liberation, by Leslie Feinberg
  • Transgender Emergence, by Arlene Istar Lev
  • Transgender Warriors, by Leslie Feinberg
  • Transition and Beyond, by Reid Vanderburgh
  • True Selves, by Mildred Brown
  • What Becomes You, by Aaron Link Raz and Hilda Raz
  • Whipping Girl, by Julia Serano
I have come into this world to see this:
the sword drop from men's hands even at the height
of their arc of anger
because we have finally realized there is just one flesh to wound
and it is His - the Christ's, our
Beloved's.
~Hafiz